i can't fly this plane

Today, I saw an "On-The-Go 1" playlist under the "Christmas Time" playlist in my iTunes.

The only song in it is Shiny Toy Guns' We are Pilots. 

I think the naming of the song is funny because if it means we are pilots of our lives, the song isn't about controlling your life at all. It's more like questioning it, or life being completely out of our control, not doing anything, but being glum about it. 

I remembered why it was the only song in there:
It's pretty much the story of my life, besides a few points, but maybe 99% of it, I can relate to. If you have never heard the song, or the band, I really suggest you listen to the song. . .or the band in general.

"I guess I'm under the weather
Since no one else belongs here with me"

That's pretty much how I feel all the time; like an apathetic pitiful little downer.

I can quote practically the whole song and tell you how it pertains to my life but I think I'd bore you, so to sum it all up, I have many secrets, I just sort of avoid my problems, sometimes I do cry all night, I'm accepting that I can't do what I really want to do, just for the sake of my mom, the chorus should say hello mother twice in my case because my dad doesn't matter. I don't live with him so there really isn't much to sing about. [that is such a lie]

Go enlighten yourself with some music if you have no fucking idea what I'm talking about.
If you do, then. . .congratulations.

So Neon

I haven't blogged in a while. I'm not even a blogger. I don't know how to, what to write or talk about.

But can I just say that I'm in love with the song Neon Sky by Wolftron. It has been on repeat for. . .a long time. If anyone reads these, which I doubt they do, listen to the song. It's pretty damn good. It makes me smile, every single time I listen to it. I'm not too sure what the song talks about but I'm pretty sure it's about a girl. I mean,

 "If you were around, the sun would melt in the sky and paint through shades of gray,"

is cute and meaningful. It makes me feel like I'm in need of my significant other, even though I don't have one. It gets me thinking. . .that I would like someone who paints my world, who is my neon sky. I've had some glimmers of hope with some, but their buckets of paint were either gray, already empty or emptying faster than it should, as if he were painting for two. I guess it wasn't my time.

I'll get my world coloured.

The world is full of artists.

Produced From My Head

I like a lot of music :]

From The Starting Line,
I kind of knew he was having a Paramore.
I hit an All Time Low when I
refused to see myself as The Used.
I first knew from The Automatic Automatic
stutter in his voice.
I was in A Fine Frenzy when I finally ended
My Chemical Romance with him.
Well it was only Young Love.
Here's the story of The Fall Of Troy and I:
I followed him to a motel called Tokio Hotel.
He really was having a French Affair.
I followed him to his room and saw through the window,
it was all Tits And Clits!
I felt like I had a Leathermouth.
I banged on the door.
He broke My American Heart.
He opened the door and The Temptaions
of calling an Attack Attack! on him were so strong.
Although I felt like I just went From First To Last on God's list,
I still believed he had a Simple Plan for me, so I said I was gone forever.
He said sorry and we'd go home together and I LMFAO then punched him.
The Cab that I rode in to follow charged me too much money
so I went to the Metro Station
and took it home to Owl City.
Then I drove to my son's daycare. I had a Dashboard Confessional.
I told my car everything and cried.
On the way home, my sonplayed with his Shiny Toy Guns.
He saw something was wrong
and asked if we could play doctor. I said just Stick To Your Guns.
Later, my friends Meg & Dia came by.
I told them I couldn't Escape The Fate of bad men in my life.
They wanted to take me out.
I gave my son to Mrs. and Mr. Oizo for the night.
An hour in, there was Panic! At The Disco; under aged kids.
At the bar, I met my old Pencey Prep classmate, Jim Sturgess.
He asked me out on Halloween. He had a kid too. I agreed.
Halloween night, there were Scary Kids Scaring Kids everywhere,
and people Smashing Pumpkins.
This date was not Something Corporate. We shared a lot more.
[Without our sons.] And on New Years Day, he asked me to marry him.
On our wedding day, he sang me a Secondhand Serenade.
We moved to Sherwood.Now we are on the Pendulum called life together.

Copyright©April 17 2009